13-01-2015 : Perginya tak kembali lagi

Perginya tak kembali lagi..

13 January 2015 (22 Rabiulawal 1436),

That morning around 10.10 am, I got a shocking news from Mom, saying my grandfather has passed away. She asked me to straight away balik kampung while she and my Dad will be going back in a different car ( cause my place is closer to my kampung and I'm driving).

Along the way to kampung, I just couldn't stop thinking about my grandfather.

' when is the last time I saw him '
' what good deed (s) have I done to him throughout his life '
' I didn't get to say I love you to him '

And the list goes on. 

It's raining and I couldn't focus on my driving but luckily nothing bad happened.

That one thing that I regretted the most which is until now I just can't stop thinking about it is when my grandfather asked me to save his phone number in my phone, and to call him every day to make sure he is doing fine. But, I didn't save his number. And I didn't call him everyday as he wish, due to so many reasons and excuses.

It is so heartbreaking that nobody was around when he took his last breath. Not even a family, friends or neighbors. 

It's been a week since he left us.

And it is still hard to believe that he is gone.


All I can do now is always pray for all his good deeds, all his sedekah jariah will all be accepted by ALLAH S.W.T.. Aaminn.


Al - Fatihah.